For Those Raised with "Conditional Love":
The Root of Perfectionism

"If I'm a good child, I'll be loved." "If I get good grades, I'll be recognized." "If I meet expectations, I'll have a place." Did you learn this equation somewhere along the way?

In this article, we explore how "conditional love" affects our hearts and how we can find liberation from it.

What Is Conditional Love?

Conditional love means affection that comes with conditions: "I'll be loved if..." or "I won't be loved unless..."

Most parents don't intentionally give "conditional love."

But when "Good job!" and "You're such a good child!" accumulate, children unconsciously learn "I won't be loved unless I'm good."

How Conditional Love Is Learned

Conditional love is learned from small everyday events.

The accumulation of these experiences forms the belief: "I have no value unless I meet conditions."

For a child, this was a survival strategy. Parental love is directly linked to a child's survival. So they desperately learned "what should I do to be loved?" It was a smart adaptation.

Effects in Adulthood

The problem is that this belief persists into adulthood.

1. Perfectionism

From the belief "I have no value unless I'm perfect," perfectionism is born. Always aiming for 100%, never satisfied with 80%.

2. Excessive Need for Approval

Unable to feel your own value without approval from others. The feeling of "trying hard but not being rewarded" may be because you've set "others' approval" as your reward.

3. Self-Criticism

When you fail to meet conditions, you harshly blame yourself. The voice saying "I'm no good like this" echoes in your head.

4. Difficulty Relying on Others

With the belief "I won't be loved if I cause trouble," you become unable to rely on others.

5. Emotional Suppression

Those who learned "I won't be loved if I show emotions" start avoiding feeling emotions altogether.

The Deep Connection to Perfectionism

Conditional love and perfectionism are deeply connected.

Reading "I'll be loved if I meet conditions" in reverse becomes: "I won't be loved unless I meet conditions."

This fear drives perfectionism.

"I won't be recognized unless I'm perfect."
"I'll lose my value if I make mistakes."
"I'll be abandoned if I don't meet expectations."

So you always aim for 100%. Can't feel safe with 80%. But no matter how much you achieve, the feeling of "still not enough" doesn't disappear.

Because the underlying fear of "I might not be loved" cannot be filled by achievements.

How to Find Liberation from Conditional Love

Completely freeing yourself from the effects of conditional love isn't easy. But you can change little by little.

1. First, "Notice"

Recognizing that you were raised with conditional love is the first step. Simply noticing "Oh, I believed 'I won't be loved unless I'm good'"—that alone creates some distance from that belief.

2. You Don't Need to Blame Your Parents

Most parents were also raised with conditional love themselves. They usually didn't intend to hurt you. You don't need to blame your parents. Just recognize the fact: "That was my environment."

3. Nurture a New Belief

Rewrite the old belief "I have no value unless I meet conditions" with a new one.

"I have value even without achieving anything."
"Even when I fail, my value doesn't change."
"Even imperfect, I deserve to be loved."

At first, you might not be able to believe these words. But by repeating them over and over, new neural pathways are gradually created.

4. Give Yourself Unconditional Love

Instead of waiting for unconditional love from others, practice giving it to yourself. That's self-compassion and self-acceptance.

5. Accumulate Small "Unconditional Experiences"

Gradually build up experiences of "being recognized even though I achieved nothing." In safe relationships, the experience of "it was okay to just be myself" slowly rewrites old beliefs.

Summary: You Have Value Just as You Are

Being raised with conditional love is not your fault.

And you don't need to blame yourself for having worked so hard to "be loved" in that environment.

But now, as an adult, you have another option.

Telling yourself: "I have value even without meeting conditions."

This doesn't happen overnight. A belief built over many years can only be rewritten over many years.

But you can start today.